Surrendering to the moment

Surrendering to the moment I want to be honest with you. Surrendering has been really difficult for me. even when I think I’m living in the present moment, there’s always a part of me looking ahead. Hoping that whatever I’m doing will bring me the future I’ve been longing for. And that hope, as small […]
Realignment through rejection

Realignment through rejection Sometimes, rejection feels like a punch in the stomach. You step out of your comfort zone, put yourself out there, and then… auch. A door closes in your face. In my previous story, I shared how I’ve been stepping out of my comfort zone lately. One of those steps was creating a […]
Stepping out of my comfort zone

Stepping out of my comfort zone In the past seven months, I’ve been going through the biggest internal transformation of my life. Kundalini energy has been guiding me through what some people describe as ego deaths. It’s reshaping my personality into something that feels closer to my true self. This has been an amazing, but […]
The beauty of vulnerability

The beauty of vulnerability Since I started sharing my personal journey and feelings, more and more people have been reaching out to me. Many of them feel connected to my stories and tell me they’ve been touched in some way. That’s exactly why I share them. For as long as I can remember, I’ve felt […]
The roots of my wound in music

The roots of my wound in music Since my Kundalini started rising, everything that needs to be healed and released has been coming up. Over the past few weeks, it’s all been about expressing myself through music. Yes, I’ve been creating music for years, maybe even my whole life, but truly expressing what I want […]
Between who I was and who I am becoming

Between who I was and who I am becoming If you’ve read my recent blogs, you already know I’ve been experiencing some strange and profound inner healing moments. A rising kundalini has taken place, and since then, I’ve gone through the deepest releases so far. All the lower chakras, the heart chakra, and the throat […]
Letting go of the need for success

Letting go of the need for succes Today, I feel like I’m going through what they call an “ego death.” It honestly feels like my heart is breaking, and it’s not a pleasant feeling. Somehow, this morning I woke up with all kinds of emotions rising to the surface. Feelings of failure, like my whole […]
Embracing life as an outsider

Embracing life as an outsider For as long as I can remember, I’ve felt different from other people. I was the odd one out in my family, at school, in friend groups, pretty much everywhere. As a child, I was already deeply drawn to spirituality and felt emotions intensely. Later, my mom and psychologists discovered […]
Connecting with my chakras

Connecting with my chakras I’ve always found it hard to understand chakras and wasn’t sure if I believed in these energy centers in the body. But my curiosity for anything spiritual, especially things you can’t see with your eyes, has always been there. it wasn’t until I started doing the Dr. Joe Dispenza meditations that […]
Dr. Joe Dispenza Meditation: A phase of emptiness

Dr. Joe Dispenza Meditation: A phase of emptiness After spending two years in Egypt, I’m now back in the Netherlands, staying with my parents for about four months. My mother introduced me to Dr. Joe Dispenza’s meditations and the research behind them. Something about it resonated with me, so I decided to experiment and try […]